Track 6: "Holla at Me" - Tupac

This is my "relationship with Severus" song.

As a reminder for sensitive folks, I will not be editing the rest of the lyrics. I've highlighted the specific lyrics that most directly relate below, so you can skip the rest if you like. However, I encourage you to be bold as the context of the full song is important. If you choose to continue below, the lyrics are written accurately and are fully representative of my feelings at the end of my decade long relationship.

Severus knew my family history. He knew all about my mom and dad's story and my grandparents dying young. He knew my worries and fears, my hopes and dreams of a better life, and he still betrayed me in such cruel and unkind ways. Although this feeling is fading, there is still some bitter rage underneath the healing surface.

...Hell have no fury like a woman's scorn A cemetery full of motherfuckers not knowin'

I let the world know, nigg*, you a coward Ya could never be live Until you die See the motherfuckin' bitch in your eye

Lyrics

Niggas out there jealous cause we be bailin' with Death Row

They try to playa hate

But they can't fade us tho'

We be mobbin' through the neigborhood, yeah

With that funky sound

So funky

We be throwin' down

This goes out to you playa

You know, you know who you are

Gotta be carefull, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me nigga, ya better holla at me

Gotta be carefull, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me nigga, ya better holla at me

Gotta be carefull, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me nigga, ya better holla at me

Are you confused?

You wonder how it feels to walk a mile inside the shoes

Of a nigga who don't have a thing to lose

When me and you was homies

No one informed me it was all a scheme

You infiltrated my team and sold a nigga's dreams

How could you do me like that?

I took ya family in

I put some cash in ya pocket

Made you a man again

And now you let the fear put your ass in a place

Complicated to escape

It's a fool's fate

Without your word

You're a shell of a man

I lost respect for ya, nigga

We can never be friends

I know I'm runnin' through your head now

What could you do?

If it was up to you

I'd be dead now

I let the world know, nigga, you a coward

Ya could never be live

Until you die

See the motherfuckin' bitch in your eye

Type of nigga, that let the evil of the money trap me

When ya see me, nigga, ya better holla at me (holla at me)

Gotta be ready, don't let the evil of the money trap me

So when you see me, nigga, you better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

So I gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me, nigga, ya better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

Curious

Spittin' lyrics

On tha verge of furious

I'm addicted to currency

Nigga that's why we're doin this

I got shot up, I surprised tha niggas tha way I got up

And then

I hit the studio

It's time to blow tha block up

No hesitation

This information got you contemplatin'

Heartbreakin' and eliminatin' with this conversation

Break him

And let him see tha face of a mental patient

It's a celebration

Of my criminal elevation

With the participation

I want members across tha fifty states

To keep tha nation anticipatin' until we break

Will I be great, is it my fate?

To live tha life of luxury

Some niggas bought my tapes

So much jealousy it scares me

So be prepared

Cause only tha strong survive

Life isn't fair (fair)

Probably never knew tha way it feels to die

So you figure fuck with me

I give that ass a try

Nigga, Holla at me

Gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me, nigga, ya better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

Now I gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me, nigga, ya better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

I should've saw the signs

I was blinded

Criminal minds of a young black brotha doin' time

So many brothas framed in this dirty game

It's a shame

So much pressure on my brain

While she blame me

Secrets in tha dark

Only her and I know

Now I'm sittin' in tha state pen

Doin time slow

Guess she made a bad decision

That got me livin'

Just like an animal

I'm caged up in state prison

My niggas dissin'

Cause

Hell have no fury like a woman's scorn

A cemetary full of motherfuckers not knowin'

Picture my prophecy

Tha cops are attacking me, on top of me

I'm runnin' from tha coppers

But never let'em stop me

Cause I'm a soulja

Hell, ever since I was a little nigga havin' fantasies

Of one day getting older

Niggas is paranoid

Trust

A no no

Love is a mystery

Fuck tha po po

Holla at me...

So when you see me nigga

You better holla at me...

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

Gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me, nigga, ya better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

A nigga gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when ya see me, nigga, ya better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

Niggas out there jealous cause we be bailin' with Death Row

They try to playa hate

But they can't fade us tho'

We be mobbin' through the neigborhood, yeah

With that funky sound

So funky

We be throwin' down

Gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when you see me nigga

You better holla at me

(You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay)

Gotta be careful, can't let the evil of the money trap me

So when you see me nigga

You better holla at me

You better beware where you lay

We better not find where you stay, oh oh

Oh! Oh no no no

Writers

Bobby Ervin, Bobby F Ervin, Tupac Amaru Shakur

Publishers

Universal Music Publishing Group, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Songtrust Ave, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.

Source - Lyricsfind & Genius